God is AMAZING

For the last several months I have been perfecting the art of juggling swords, knives and bills....no really just bills :) It only feels like I am dodging swords and knives.
As a single mother-who receives little to no help from someone who shall remain nameless- I often find that I am barely treading water keeping the simple life I have created for my family alive. I want my son to eat healthy food, learn both mentally and emotionally in school, have a roof over his head and clothes on his back, have medical care when he needs it, and darn it have some entertainment too. No, I do not feel that is asking too much. With this economy and with the small budget I have to work with this is ALWAYS a challenge.

I have learned to put my trust and faith in God. Time and time again He has proven to me that through Him all things are indeed possible. Just when I think I'm going to lose my electricity or not have enough gas to make it to school/work magically some opportunity for earning a little money comes up; or a "missing" 20.00 magically appears. I pray as often as I can to say thank you for the blessings that I receive in this life.

I am most certainly not perfect, and I often fall victim to my own fears and my own human nature to rely solely on myself for survival. It is becoming refreshing to realize that is not the case.

God truly is amazing and tests my faith OFTEN. I know that this is so that I will not be found lacking the day He decides to call me to his side. (yes that thought still scares the bejebus out of me.) It is hard, and it usually makes me want to throw punches into the universe as though that will somehow show Him I think he's a nutso sometimes. But I always revert to praying for help and asking ceaselessly to hear his call and follow His commands so that I can continue to be saved. I am quite sure I would have lost my mind by now if I continued to live as though I was a lonely little island.